• Depressed

    I am feeling
    Very sad
    Depression sure
    Is bad

    I am lethargic
    And full of fatigue
    When it comes to mental illness
    I’m out of my league

    I am a beached whale
    All day I lay in bed
    Tossing and turning
    I cannot rest my weary head

    I lack
    Motivation
    It is surely
    A devastation

    I long
    To be free
    And to have
    No more mental misery

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • A Dream

    I crossed the stream
    And began my dream

    I lived off the land
    Didn’t need a helping hand

    I built a cabin made of logs
    Hunted rabbits and wild hogs

    I caught trout
    The fish were all about

    I invited my sister Vi to be with me
    Our home was warm and cozy

    We drank hot chocolate and tea
    We were footloose and fancy-free

    We laughed and played all-day
    We were never in dismay

    We read books and chatted
    Sometimes my hair was matted

    Vi cooked us wonderful food
    It always improved my mood

    We played cards and many a board game
    They were never lame

    We slumbered peacefully
    My sister and I, together eternally

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • Journey

    I’m soaring above
    The deep blue sky
    You may be wondering
    How I can fly so high

    The answer is
    Telekinetic propulsion
    I do not require
    Any combustion

    My mental powers
    Stagger the common man
    But I always follow
    God’s plan

    I am an exalted being
    Anointed by Christ the King
    Of His glory and majesty
    I shall sing

    Using phased
    Warps of spacetime
    I can travel anywhere
    It is truly sublime

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • A Day of Depression

    I’m depressed
    Today
    Full of
    Dismay

    I feel woe
    I’m melancholy
    Not feeling
    Very jolly

    I’m down
    In the dump
    Feel like
    A chump

    I’m on
    The brink of despair
    I wonder
    Does anyone care

    I pray to God to free me
    From these mental chains
    I am full
    Of pains

    I have
    No motivation
    It is
    A difficult situation

    I long
    To be of sound mind
    It is something
    I must find

    I will wait
    On God
    While I pound
    The sod

    Christ has not
    Abandoned me
    In Him, I will be
    Truly happy

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • Altered States

    I take
    Many psychotropic medication
    They fill me with elation

    I dislike
    Evert single dissociative event
    My sanity is spent

    I must endure
    Great suffering and pain
    Because I am insane

    I have
    Delusions that are intense
    God must get His recompense

    Sadly I must deal with
    Sometimes having a psychotic outburst
    It is the worst

    Life with
    A psychotic disorder is hard
    I must constantly be on guard

    I am tormented
    By many a disturbing hallucination
    How I long for their eradication

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • Some Thoughts On the Lord’s Day

    I am adrift
    In an ocean
    Made of emotion

    I must temper
    My thoughts with reason
    It’s that type of season

    I yearn
    To be free
    From my mental misery

    Mental illness
    It is a difficult road to take
    I cannot afford a mistake

    Sometimes
    I am in a psychotic state
    My insanity is first-rate

    Also, I have
    Many a strong delusion
    I’m in a process of confusion

    Please Lord
    Let the inner voices stop
    I need a phased time warp

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • My Name is Zachary and I’m Insane

    I ran
    In the rain
    It made me insane

    My mind
    It is out of whack
    It’s sanity I lack

    I’m as crazy
    As a loon
    I’ll jump over the moon

    I’m truly
    Barking mad
    Don’t feel sad

    I am frequently
    In a psychotic state
    It sure isn’t great

    If you get too close
    I may bite
    My mind just isn’t right

    I’m a lunatic
    I take many medication
    For my psychiatric situation

    I will
    Bray all day long
    Listen to my sweet donkey song

    It’s soundness of mind
    I do lack
    I am having a psychotic attack

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • A Psychotic Poem

    I will rage
    While I eat fage
    And destroy the Satanic mage

    I will run
    In the sun
    Until I am done

    I will eat
    A tasty treat
    That can’t be beat

    I am depressed
    It caused me to be distressed
    I won’t get dressed

    I am alright
    I have the might
    I will fight

    I will say
    Hip hip hooray
    It’s a new day

    I will fart
    In Walmart
    As I throw a dart

    I am insane
    I have a defective brain
    My sanity does wane

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • The Blessed Spoon

    I was in
    A super itchy state
    It sure wasn’t great

    Then along came Vi
    With her blessed spoon
    It sent me over the moon

    The treatment
    Was complete
    My joy was replete

    No more
    Horrible itching
    Sweet relief I was enjoying

    by Zachary Uram
    (C) 2024

  • The Church in Crisis: The State of Mental Health in the Body of Christ

    In the past 70 years, there has been significant progress made in the field of mental health. Society has become more accepting of those suffering mental illness, and there is less of a stigma associated with it.

    However there is still much room for progress. Stigma still exists and those suffering mental health issues are by far the most marginalized and disenfranchised and most vulnerable population in America.

    Sadly, there is still vast ignorance, discrimination, and bigotry against those suffering with mental illness. This exists both in the larger society as well as, tragically, in the Church.

    The Church doesn’t have a good track record in its treatment of the mentally ill. For most of the past 2,000 years the mentally ill were treated as if they were demon possessed. They would be locked up in prison, or forced to live alone and fend for themselves. In more recent times, such as the Victorian Era (19th century), the mentally ill were locked up in sanitariums where there were many human rights abuses, and even torture and rape.

    In the 20th century, we saw drugs introduced in the 1950s like lithium (anti-depressant) and haldol (anti-psychotic). These drugs helped many people. But there were still horrible abuses, such as the lobotomy. This procedure, introduced in the 1930s, involved removing part of the patient’s brain. Lobotomies were conducted from the 1930s through the early 1950s. Understand that these procedures were done on helpless patients who did not consent to such a barbaric and cruel procedure. This was an outrageous abuse. According to one 2013 research paper, roughly 60,000 lobotomies were performed in the United States and Europe in the 2 decades after the procedure was invented. President John F. Kennedy’s sister Rosemary had a lobotomy that left her permanently capacitated. Victims of lobotomies were left like vegetables.

    As the treatment of mental illness increased from the 1950s to the present time, sadly there was not a similar increase in the attitudes and amount of ignorance present in many churches in America in their views on the subject.

    Today in the Church, there are millions of believers and thousands of pastors who exhibit vast ignorance and theological confusion when it comes to mentally ill believers in the Church.

    In many churches today, the most popular method for dealing with believers who have mental illness is called biblical counseling (utilizing truths from Scripture to address what is viewed as spiritual problems). Yes that is correct, they do not believe in using primarily psychiatric means of counseling, therapy and drugs. Rather, sadly, many of these churches view the root cause of these manifestations which we label mental illness, as being sins which Scripture addresses. This method of treatment is very popular I’ve noticed in Reformed churches. Especially a type of biblical counseling called nouthetic counseling. Mental illnesses are sins which must be confessed, prayed for, and removed through the process of spiritual sanctification.

    This is a category error. Mental illnesses are not sins. They need psychiatric help, not theological. Methods like nouthetic counseling can actually work for minor mental illnesses, such as minor anxiety and minor transient depression. But in my research and personal experience, these biblical methods provide very little substantive and qualitative assistance to those, like myself, who suffer from severe mental illnesses, such as schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, major depression, severe anxiety disorders, etc.

    Many pastors believe and teach that mental illnesses don’t even exist! Recently Dr. John MacArthur, pastor of Grace Community Church in Sun Valley, California, and president of The Master’s College and Seminary, asserted that there is no such thing as mental illness. For more info on exactly what MacArthur said read this article here.

    This type of ignorant and uneducated speech, from an influential Christian leader, from a man of his great theological stature and prominence is deeply hurtful and potentially very damaging, not only to those believers with mental illness under his charge, but also it could be very damaging to those believers who suffer from mental illnesses who follow him and read his books and listen to his weekly sermons. MacArthur’s statements and assertions were, in my opinion, unwise, misinformed and lacking biblical footing.

    I should say that I admire and respect MacArthur. R.C. Sproul and he were the two people who brought me into Reformed theology. I agree with MacArthur on most issues of theology. However in this case I believe he is dead wrong. Further I believe that pastors like him who are teaching their flocks that mental illnesses don’t exist are dangerous, are unbiblical, are guilty of false teaching, are leading people astray, and are ignorant.

    With this false teaching concerning mental illness, the potential for danger to believers suffering from mental illness is very great. For example, if a believer has major depression and is told by their pastor that mental illness doesn’t exist, it may prevent them from seeking out treatment. If they are suicidal the result could be death by suicide.

    There are some pastors who teach that mental illness is the result of demonic possession. Others teach that what we perceive as mental illnesses are just the result of a lack of faith. These beliefs further stigmatize those suffering from mental illness.

    No matter how prominent or well respected a pastor is, if they are guilty of false teaching they must be challenged and called to repentance. We must hold church leaders, pastors and elders, accountable.

    If you would like to learn more about nouthetic counseling, check out my two posts below.