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Depressed
I am feeling
Very sad
Depression sure
Is badI am lethargic
And full of fatigue
When it comes to mental illness
I’m out of my leagueI am a beached whale
All day I lay in bed
Tossing and turning
I cannot rest my weary headI lack
Motivation
It is surely
A devastationI long
To be free
And to have
No more mental miseryby Zachary Uram
(C) 2024 -
A Dream
I crossed the stream
And began my dreamI lived off the land
Didn’t need a helping handI built a cabin made of logs
Hunted rabbits and wild hogsI caught trout
The fish were all aboutI invited my sister Vi to be with me
Our home was warm and cozyWe drank hot chocolate and tea
We were footloose and fancy-freeWe laughed and played all-day
We were never in dismayWe read books and chatted
Sometimes my hair was mattedVi cooked us wonderful food
It always improved my moodWe played cards and many a board game
They were never lameWe slumbered peacefully
My sister and I, together eternallyby Zachary Uram
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Journey
I’m soaring above
The deep blue sky
You may be wondering
How I can fly so highThe answer is
Telekinetic propulsion
I do not require
Any combustionMy mental powers
Stagger the common man
But I always follow
God’s planI am an exalted being
Anointed by Christ the King
Of His glory and majesty
I shall singUsing phased
Warps of spacetime
I can travel anywhere
It is truly sublimeby Zachary Uram
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A Day of Depression
I’m depressed
Today
Full of
DismayI feel woe
I’m melancholy
Not feeling
Very jollyI’m down
In the dump
Feel like
A chumpI’m on
The brink of despair
I wonder
Does anyone careI pray to God to free me
From these mental chains
I am full
Of painsI have
No motivation
It is
A difficult situationI long
To be of sound mind
It is something
I must findI will wait
On God
While I pound
The sodChrist has not
Abandoned me
In Him, I will be
Truly happyby Zachary Uram
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Altered States
I take
Many psychotropic medication
They fill me with elationI dislike
Evert single dissociative event
My sanity is spentI must endure
Great suffering and pain
Because I am insaneI have
Delusions that are intense
God must get His recompenseSadly I must deal with
Sometimes having a psychotic outburst
It is the worstLife with
A psychotic disorder is hard
I must constantly be on guardI am tormented
By many a disturbing hallucination
How I long for their eradicationby Zachary Uram
(C) 2024 -
Some Thoughts On the Lord’s Day
I am adrift
In an ocean
Made of emotionI must temper
My thoughts with reason
It’s that type of seasonI yearn
To be free
From my mental miseryMental illness
It is a difficult road to take
I cannot afford a mistakeSometimes
I am in a psychotic state
My insanity is first-rateAlso, I have
Many a strong delusion
I’m in a process of confusionPlease Lord
Let the inner voices stop
I need a phased time warpby Zachary Uram
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My Name is Zachary and I’m Insane
I ran
In the rain
It made me insaneMy mind
It is out of whack
It’s sanity I lackI’m as crazy
As a loon
I’ll jump over the moonI’m truly
Barking mad
Don’t feel sadI am frequently
In a psychotic state
It sure isn’t greatIf you get too close
I may bite
My mind just isn’t rightI’m a lunatic
I take many medication
For my psychiatric situationI will
Bray all day long
Listen to my sweet donkey songIt’s soundness of mind
I do lack
I am having a psychotic attackby Zachary Uram
(C) 2024 -
A Psychotic Poem
I will rage
While I eat fage
And destroy the Satanic mageI will run
In the sun
Until I am doneI will eat
A tasty treat
That can’t be beatI am depressed
It caused me to be distressed
I won’t get dressedI am alright
I have the might
I will fightI will say
Hip hip hooray
It’s a new dayI will fart
In Walmart
As I throw a dartI am insane
I have a defective brain
My sanity does waneby Zachary Uram
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The Blessed Spoon
I was in
A super itchy state
It sure wasn’t greatThen along came Vi
With her blessed spoon
It sent me over the moonThe treatment
Was complete
My joy was repleteNo more
Horrible itching
Sweet relief I was enjoyingby Zachary Uram
(C) 2024 -
The Church in Crisis: The State of Mental Health in the Body of Christ
In the past 70 years, there has been significant progress made in the field of mental health. Society has become more accepting of those suffering mental illness, and there is less of a stigma associated with it.
However there is still much room for progress. Stigma still exists and those suffering mental health issues are by far the most marginalized and disenfranchised and most vulnerable population in America.
Sadly, there is still vast ignorance, discrimination, and bigotry against those suffering with mental illness. This exists both in the larger society as well as, tragically, in the Church.
The Church doesn’t have a good track record in its treatment of the mentally ill. For most of the past 2,000 years the mentally ill were treated as if they were demon possessed. They would be locked up in prison, or forced to live alone and fend for themselves. In more recent times, such as the Victorian Era (19th century), the mentally ill were locked up in sanitariums where there were many human rights abuses, and even torture and rape.
In the 20th century, we saw drugs introduced in the 1950s like lithium (anti-depressant) and haldol (anti-psychotic). These drugs helped many people. But there were still horrible abuses, such as the lobotomy. This procedure, introduced in the 1930s, involved removing part of the patient’s brain. Lobotomies were conducted from the 1930s through the early 1950s. Understand that these procedures were done on helpless patients who did not consent to such a barbaric and cruel procedure. This was an outrageous abuse. According to one 2013 research paper, roughly 60,000 lobotomies were performed in the United States and Europe in the 2 decades after the procedure was invented. President John F. Kennedy’s sister Rosemary had a lobotomy that left her permanently capacitated. Victims of lobotomies were left like vegetables.
As the treatment of mental illness increased from the 1950s to the present time, sadly there was not a similar increase in the attitudes and amount of ignorance present in many churches in America in their views on the subject.
Today in the Church, there are millions of believers and thousands of pastors who exhibit vast ignorance and theological confusion when it comes to mentally ill believers in the Church.
In many churches today, the most popular method for dealing with believers who have mental illness is called biblical counseling (utilizing truths from Scripture to address what is viewed as spiritual problems). Yes that is correct, they do not believe in using primarily psychiatric means of counseling, therapy and drugs. Rather, sadly, many of these churches view the root cause of these manifestations which we label mental illness, as being sins which Scripture addresses. This method of treatment is very popular I’ve noticed in Reformed churches. Especially a type of biblical counseling called nouthetic counseling. Mental illnesses are sins which must be confessed, prayed for, and removed through the process of spiritual sanctification.
This is a category error. Mental illnesses are not sins. They need psychiatric help, not theological. Methods like nouthetic counseling can actually work for minor mental illnesses, such as minor anxiety and minor transient depression. But in my research and personal experience, these biblical methods provide very little substantive and qualitative assistance to those, like myself, who suffer from severe mental illnesses, such as schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, major depression, severe anxiety disorders, etc.
Many pastors believe and teach that mental illnesses don’t even exist! Recently Dr. John MacArthur, pastor of Grace Community Church in Sun Valley, California, and president of The Master’s College and Seminary, asserted that there is no such thing as mental illness. For more info on exactly what MacArthur said read this article here.
This type of ignorant and uneducated speech, from an influential Christian leader, from a man of his great theological stature and prominence is deeply hurtful and potentially very damaging, not only to those believers with mental illness under his charge, but also it could be very damaging to those believers who suffer from mental illnesses who follow him and read his books and listen to his weekly sermons. MacArthur’s statements and assertions were, in my opinion, unwise, misinformed and lacking biblical footing.
I should say that I admire and respect MacArthur. R.C. Sproul and he were the two people who brought me into Reformed theology. I agree with MacArthur on most issues of theology. However in this case I believe he is dead wrong. Further I believe that pastors like him who are teaching their flocks that mental illnesses don’t exist are dangerous, are unbiblical, are guilty of false teaching, are leading people astray, and are ignorant.
With this false teaching concerning mental illness, the potential for danger to believers suffering from mental illness is very great. For example, if a believer has major depression and is told by their pastor that mental illness doesn’t exist, it may prevent them from seeking out treatment. If they are suicidal the result could be death by suicide.
There are some pastors who teach that mental illness is the result of demonic possession. Others teach that what we perceive as mental illnesses are just the result of a lack of faith. These beliefs further stigmatize those suffering from mental illness.
No matter how prominent or well respected a pastor is, if they are guilty of false teaching they must be challenged and called to repentance. We must hold church leaders, pastors and elders, accountable.
If you would like to learn more about nouthetic counseling, check out my two posts below.